Allow me to share with you a verse of scripture. Turn with me in your bibles to the Book of Hebrews chapter 11, verse 1. Now the bible tells me that “faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen”. Let me say it again the bible tells me that FAITH…Well to be completely honest, what the bible tells me about faith has awakened within me a new sense of skepticism. Don’t get offended, church folks. Just hear me out. When problems arise in my life I’m often advised to pray about it. I find this to be an incredibly oversimplified solution because the bible tells me that “faith without works is dead” and c’mon now, we’ve all heard that sermon.
Quite frankly, it takes more than just a little talk with Jesus to make things right. If you’re anything like me and you’ve spent the greater part of your life believing and having faith, perhaps you’ve found yourself in a situation where it seems that you’ve spent countless hours at the altar. You’ve tithed and you’ve prayed and you’ve prayed and you’ve tithed until you are near exhaustion. You’ve lived your life as righteously as you possibly could but God hasn’t seen fit to relieve your suffering because it’s all apart of the Master’s master plan for your life. Now tell me, how does that make you feel? Wouldn’t it be nice to take a peek at those plans? Wouldn’t that, perhaps, renew your faith?
And I’ve heard it all before. I know he’s an on time God, oh yes he is. Exceedingly and abundantly above all that you could ask or think according to the power that worketh in you, all of that. I’ve given it a good faith effort, no pun intended. I have indeed blessed The Lord, oh my soul and all that is within me. Yet I’ve arrived at this conclusion. If you disagree with me, then I’m just out here on a limb all by myself. Though I have a feeling that at least one person understands where I’m coming from and that’s fine with me because the bible tells us that where one or two have gathered….
Lets move on, shall we? Kendrick Lamar tells us (all the while insisting that we don’t kill his vibe) that he is sinner that is probably going to sin again. He beseeches The Lord to forgive him for things he does not understand. I ask not for forgiveness, but I beseech The Lord to understand me. I ask that The Lord know my heart as only he can. It is not for lack of understanding that I’ve chosen to live outside of the will of God. For I do understand the wages of sin, I know all too well the concept of free will.
More than anything I believe in faith. The ironic thing is that though I lack faith in Him, I hope that everything will work out for the best given that the plan for my life I’ve not yet seen. I believe in love. I cannot claim to love with the love of Jesus Christ however I endeavor to be content with ordinary living so that I may love extraordinarily. I believe in doing good, because there’s simply enough cruelty in the world. And lastly I believe in being inherently good because the bible tells me that the devil comes to steal, kill, and destroy. But look at your neighbor and say “neighbor, even for all of your faith, you may be but a wolf in sheep’s clothing”
Words by: AlexZanDrea